I keep two stars tucked in my back pocket for emergencies
Heart breaking like glass across the face of a fire exstinguisher case
I figured now was as good a time as any
Pulled one out
Scrawled your name across the points
and tossed it into the sky
Hoping that you'd look up
Wish me back home
Daddy I need you
But you've become so enamored in your delusion that when you look up
You don't see the sky no more
Aftershocks frm past bombs dropped above your head don't compare to the day
Your world rockd when
The pregnancy tests read positive
Coming into this world holdng a fistful of your insecurities
I was on my to remind you that miracles usually happen when you dnt realize you're in need
Your heart so hardened by the chemical hazards used to protect you
Turned two edged sword killing your
Mental picture of what we could be
Scraping away layers of my smile
And all you see is the magnifying of our negatives
No amount of red lights could prepare you for the parental processng
That did nothing to get rid of the
black still eroding my eyes
I cry
You see mortars
I start weeping
You see country borders
Blood runs down the fingers of a man
Long since incapable of scrawling his name in the sand
mastering the art of murder for hire
The one you should have aborted was
left alive to watch you decimate villages
Decimate my dreams
Knives ripping thru the throats of children
took away my ability to
mean wht I sing
Your bullets ripping through women
Pierced my heart in so many different places
Daddy how can I live my purpose
When you left me to bleed what I dream what I believe
You were tearng apart homes
Before I was propelled from your loins
All on a paycheck's order
I had a proud uncle sam
Before you even knew you had a daughter
Liscened to kill
you carried your auttomatic weapon like your Bible
Spit fire like scriptures into the domes of the ignorant
You were slipping into the fantasies of the fighting
While poison crept through your veins
Like thoughts of creation crept thru the mind of the almighty
7days birthed history
We call them Adam and Eve
Countless yrs birthed your misery
My momma named me Jennifer Denise
Steady stuck in your faded picture
helmet tilted rifle blazng
You were amazing Daddy
But you never came home
You traded your heart for a purple one
They pinned a piece of fabric to stone
And alone I've been every since
But I've got one star left to shoot to you
One last hope to fling across the sky
I scrawled out your name
Sealed it with a kiss
Daddy I'm praying
Maybe Just maybe this will be the night you finally look to the skys
open your eyes
and make a wish
j.claude(C)2011 Phoenix
